How do I feel right now?
Right now, I feel really down.
Sad.
Like I’m holding something back.
Dating is hard.
Sometimes I honestly wonder if it’s even meant for me.
How did I approach today?
I actually started the day feeling really good.
It was supposed to be a rest day, and someone I’ve really started to like texted me first thing this morning.
Everything felt good through most of the afternoon.
Then, somewhere along the way, my emotions shifted.
What is one thing I completed today?
One thing I completed today was rearranging my office.
I wanted the space to feel more organized and hopefully make it easier to work in moving forward.
Additional Reflection
Today reminded me how easy it is to become attached to an idea.
Over the past few days, I allowed myself to imagine what something could become.
Now I’m sitting here realizing how difficult it is for me to simply ask a woman out like it seems to be for so many other people.
I don’t know why that feels so hard for me.
As I write this, I honestly feel like I’m holding back tears.
I’m not really sure how to wrap up today’s journal entry.
Maybe that’s okay.
Not every day ends with a lesson.
Sometimes the honest ending is simply admitting that today was hard.